Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.. and everything you do.

oh dear...

2006-07-12T20:54:45Z

Wow. It's been a while.
Forgot my password too!

Back from Californiiiiiaaa.

A lot has changed since I last updated this...
A LOT.

And unfortunately, I have to face reality
Wether it makes me the happiest girl in the world
or makes me feel like my whole world is crashing down and break into pieces.

HAAA
So dramatic eh?
WHATEVER.

My mood is up and down ever since.
I don't like it one bit.

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All I know is at the end of the day...
I still love him.

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I wish there was a way to stop time.
Time is going back so damn fast... way too fast.

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God wont talk to me
I guess she's pretty busy lately
I like to believe
She's listening

I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined all real
I'll get through each day
get through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway

And this is my beautiful life
the only thing certain is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it get's I know it's still is amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life
- Beautiful Life (La Bella Vita) - Lindsay Lohan

Oh dear...

2006-04-11T17:17:02Z

Wow, totally forgot about this online journal thingy. Ha. Well anyway.. I'm at school right now with nothing to do. I really should start bringing my text book with me so I can "STUDY" and do something productive during my breaks instead of spending 3 hours on the net or whatever.

So, finals are coming up. Welcome back, Stress. How it loves me. Trying to be calm about it.. I'm alright right now but I know next week I'll start to feel the pressure. I'm doing really well this semester so I really want to keep it up. I feel like I'm gonna be stressing out like crazy (more than before) since this is the first time I'm pulling off marks like these.. so I'm gonna end up pushing myself to the max to get the marks I want. Hope I'll be able to do it! I know I'd probably be able to do it if I just clear my mind for now and stop thinking about stupid things.

I can't wait till school is done so I can start looking for a good full time job. CompuSmart isnt doin' it for me anymore. I've been there for 2 years now and I feel like I really need a change or something. I come into work not wanting to leave the lunch room coz work is just so damn boring these days! I'd rather stay in the lunch room and do my homework or watch TV. HAHA. The only thing I'll miss about CompuSmart are the people I work with. But I gotta do what I gotta do to pay bills and I have to find a way better job if I'm gonna follow through whatever it is I want to do...

I feel really crappy today. I dont know why? I walked into class and I really didn't feel like doing anything.. and I still feel like that. It's a beautiful day and maybe my mood will change once I go outside. But I'm not off till 6:30!! It'll be cold by then.. FUCK.

So I finally got to "trade-in" my Ipod mini for the Ipod video. YAY and NAY. YAY coz obviously I have a better unit now.. and NAY coz STUPID ME DROPPED IT ON THE FIRST FUCKING DAY. Now there are scratches on the fucking screen. BLAAAAAAAAH. Alright, well I'm not THAT pissed about it.. I think it's just the mood I'm in right now that's making it sound like I'm THAT mad about it. But I really dont give a damn. The ipod's bound to have scratches anyway so who really fucking cares?

YEAH. SO. What's with people picking their nose and ears in public? I'm sorry, it never usually bothers me that much but there's a stupid guy beside me that's constantly picking his ears and nose. He wipes it off his pants and then continues to do his business.. EEWWY.

SOOO, some guy just asked if he can sit in the same table I'm sitting in. I look up and look around and 50% of the tables are fucking empty. UHHHHH, loser?? ALSO.. how come people don't get it when you don't want to talk to them? He just started talking and I'm CLEARLY "BUSY" typing away and listening to my music (Hello?? Headphones?! Can't hear you?!?) .. OH dear... I can be such a bitch. Just not in the mood.

I feel like I'm talking to myself. HAHA.. I'm such a moron.

YEAH.
YEAH.
Weirdo.

So.. I've been listening to some pretty awesome music (in my opinion). And for those of you reading this.. you might want to download these songs. Only if you want to.

I will - The Beatles (Okay, this song is not THAT awesome, but I still like it)
*Magic - Ben Folds
*Hospital Song - Ben Folds
Yellow - Coldplay
Swallowed in the sea - Coldplay
The space between - Dave Matthews Band
Monkey Wrench - Foo Fighters
Tired of you - Foo Fighters
Goodnight and go - Imogen Heap
Loose ends - Imogen Heap
Hide and seek - Imogen Heap
Such greath heights - Iron and Wine
Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin
Rescued - Jack's Mannequin
A sunday - Jimmy Eat World
Somewhere only we know - Keane
A Beautiful life - Lindsay Lohan
Home - Michael Buble
*Wonderwall - Oasis
*Don't look back in anger - Oasis
*Hey now! - Oasis
*Champagne Supernova - Oasis
*Magic Pie - Oasis
*Lyla - Oasis

andddddd.. that's all.
the one's with the star are my favourite ones.

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My hands are shaking like crazy.
I have no idea why.
Not tired or hungry.
FUCK.
agh

My mood is the TOTAL OPPOSITE of how nice it is outside.
Blah.. I hate days like these.

Guess I just needed to vent.
ALRIGHT.. gonna take a walk around the fucking campus.
I need fresh air.

amazed

2006-02-14T18:59:44Z

The day would have been really shitty if it weren't for him.
Woke up pretty late this morning so I was going crazy trying to get ready as soon as I can
So that I would be able to make it to school on time.
Imagine waking up really late with a really really bad headache.
EEK. Not good.
Then I get in my car, drive down the street and I hear something weird at the rear of the car..
BOO. Flat tire. There goes my morning...
It was cold, I was sick, late for school, pretty much broke and very very frustrated...

But it all changed the second I called him...
He picked up the call and said,"Happy Valentine's Day!"
In a really happy voice
Instantly, he was able to turn my frown into a smile without even knowing it
The sweetest text has left a smile on my face
Kept reading it over and over again
And I will continue reading it over and over again (ha ha)
Despite how shitty I am feeling (Sick face)
He has a way to change my mood...
Don't know how he does it.. but I love it.
Simple phone call.. sweet text...
a kiss.. a hug..

I'm simply so amazed.

I love him. I love him.
I'm so very lucky to have him.

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Cousin bonding on Friday.
That should be fun fun fun.

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Happy Valentine's Day

Umoja!

2006-02-05T22:17:58Z

Best birthday ever.
Monsoon + Umoja + 3 bottles of wine + most amazing guy
can only equal to... the perfect night.
Okay.. minus the rain. But that didn't seem to matter.

Awesome night.
Awesome food.
Awesome show.

Haha.. well, what do you expect from an awesome guy?
I love him.

So we didn't end up going to the Opera like I thought
But this was totally awesome and I'm so happy we ended up going to this show instead
I highly recommend for you guys to see this show.
SO so awesome.
Never a boring part.
The drums were crazy..
took my breath away.

Africa is now one of the many places I want to visit..
The list goes on.

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I love flowers :)

b8byl0ve @ 2006-01-28T22:14:00

2006-01-29T03:15:35Z

Friday was fucking awesome.
=)

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Kristine's birthday tomorrow.
Then my birthday in a week.
Wow, 21.
Don't know why.. birthdays arent such a big deal to me anymore.
Well mine at least.

...uh, nothing else to write about.
So bored and so tired from work.

Oh my...

2006-01-27T03:46:57Z

I guess I only update this when I really have nothing else to do. Otherwise I really have no time for this or it could also be simply because I have nothing to talk about. So January's almost done and February is coming up.. February = birthday and Valentine's Day. Oh my. Days are going by really fast. It seems just like yesterday that I was sad that Geoff was leaving for Italy in December. Goodness. Anyway, I really feel like I should be doing school work right now but everything seems to be going well in terms of homework and such. Not such a huge load.. YET. But midterms will come soon so thats when the stress kicks in. I still havent been able to buy my books yet coz I don't know if I should just photocopy the damn books so I can save money. Working once a week isn't helping my financial 'problems'.. bleh.. not good at all.

My dad was in an accident yesterday. He ended up going to the hospital but he's alright. It just seems so so unreal all of that happened. The image of the lights flashing at the site and my mom waking me up at 6am crying will never leave my mind. It wasn't a good experience, obviously not to anyone.. and I really hope nothing like that will happen again. I dont know.. even now I still can't believe all of that happened. He's okay and that's all that counts.

Anyway, I was listening to random songs and all of a sudden St. Patrick's Day by John Mayer came on. Brought back memories. Man oh man. Now I'm listening to Not Myself by John Mayer because those two songs especially (coz almost all of his songs reminds me of two summers ago) remind me of the time when I was just getting to know Geoff. Ohh I remember the butterflies. I remember getting so excited and nervous at the same time when my phone rang... or when I recieved an email from him.. or when there was 5 mins left till I saw him. I remember being so scared not knowing what to talk about and everything.. but once I saw him, everything just came out naturally. I remember the 2am good bye hugs and kisses. I remember the late good night phone calls/text. I remember hanging up and going to sleep with a smile. I remember waking up to sweet texts in the morning. I remember the sweet 'just wanted to say hi' 'thinking about you' texts through-out the day. I remember him saying things that would leave me smiling for days. I remember getting off work and him waiting outside for me. I remember the long drive to Oakville. I remember the late night drive back to Scarborough. I remember the feeling I felt when he left for England that summer not knowing if he was coming back or not. I remember the feeling knowing he was coming back. I remember the first time I met his dad. I remember the first time I met his mom and his sisters. I remember running in the rain with him (first time I didn't mind the rain). I remember the first time he held my hand. I remember the first time he held me close. I remember the first time we kissed. I remember it all... 1 year and 7 months later and he's still mine. The past two months have been rough for me and him, but we were able to get through it together. At the end of the day we just have to keep in mind that we're lucky to have each other. I honestly didnt know things would turn out like this.. and still to this day, I cannot believe I have him. There are times that I just stop and pause.. look at him and think to myself,'how did this all happen? he's so amazing.' He has changed my life immensely, whether it'd be him pushing me to drive on the highway (coz we all know how scared I was before) .. or driving downtown... or sticking up for myself and be more independent. He has played a major role in the last year and seven months.. and I wouldn't change a thing. He encourages me and believes in me. I'm a very lucky girl. He loves me for me. And I love him for who he is.

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
- Everything / Lifehouse

That's all. No updates for a while again.

=)

2006-01-18T04:12:43Z

Oh goodness, the weather totally sucks! Last week was so so nice. But we all knew that it was only January and we still have a lot of winter left. I guess rain, or should I say freezing rain? is way better than snow.

I'm such in a good mood right now. Last night and tonight just leaves such a huge smile on my face. Hope it stays :) ".. and if its written on my face, I hope it never goes away...'

Been trying my best to save money and so far, so good! I went to H & M today and I picked up a skirt that was only $15. Of course, it took me SO freakin' long to decide whether I want it or not. And when I finally decided I did want it, I contemplated whether it was actually worth it or not. But me thinking that it was an awesome price, I picked up not one, but two skirts. Ended up being $35. I didn't feel bad about the price though. But then about 15 minutes later, I just ended up going back to the freakin' store and returning the skirts. ha ha. I'm such a dork. It was the same dude too! Anyway, I guess it was fine I returned them since I obviously wouldn't even be able to wear them till summer time. And I can obviously use that $35 somewhere else. Plus, baby wouldn't be too happy if I told him I purchased not one, but two skirts in the middle of winter. HA. Good job me. I'm doin' well. I just have to stay away from malls. Seriously.

Aren't goldfish allowed to be in fish bowls? The dude at the pet store said the ONLY fish that's supposed to be in fishbowls are those beta fighter fish. Hmmm, I don't think thats right. BLAH. Just talking about nothing now.. I really should stop.

So after having my iBook for about 4 months now, I finally know how to right click with a track pad. HA HA. Can't believe it took me so damn long to learn it. Okay, I didn't learn it myself... Geoff had to teach me.

Oh, I need a new job. BOOOOURNS.

How many more days till my birthday? I saw my cousin's MSN name and it's counting down to her birthday which reminded me that my birthday (and Haydee's too!) is coming up. Sucks to have a birthday during winter. Absolutely nothing to do.

Yadda yadda yadda. Till next update. (which also will probably be pointless)

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I'm happy when he's happy.
I smile when I see him smiling.
I love days/nights like these.

Ha ha. I'd rather have him pushing me around
and hitting me (okay, not hard of course)
than us not talking coz we're in a bad mood.

I love it.
I love him.

its too freakin' cold

2006-01-16T06:56:17Z

Don't know what it is... but I feel so... BLAH!??!?!?!?!
I guess it's when you expect things and it's not done or it doesnt happen...
That's just how you end up feeling.
Well okay, 'expect' isn't the right word. But who really fucking cares?
Hmmm, I guess I'm just in a shitty mood today.
Which causes me to notice little things and just annoy the shit outta me.

Too bad I don't have work tomorrow.
Monday's off and no work.
How shitty. Gotta make money damnit.
But I'm looking forward to my massage.
My back has been killing me since Friday.

ANYWAY.

I'm fucking bored.

So..

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF:
BASICS
Name: Rachelle Ann Verendia
Birthday: February 4th 1985
Birthplace: Manila, Philippines
Current Location: Scarborough
Marital Status: Taken
Parents still together: Uh huh
Siblings: David (younger)
Pets: fish

PHYSICAL STUFF
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Height:: 5'4
Right handed or left handed: righty
Your Heritage: Filipino
Your Best Physical Feature: Don't know.
Number of Piercings:2
Number of Tattoos: none
Shoe Size:: 5 - 6 1/2

THE LIGHT SIDE
The Shoes You Wore Today: The pair of shoes I wear every freakin' day
Your Perfect Pizza: The pizza I had on Friday. Forgot what was on it.. BBQ chicken and shit
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Oh really?
Your Bedtime: Depends. Usually 12 - 1am
Are you a Health Freak: nope
Number of CDs I own: dont know

THE DEEP STUFF
Your Weakness: I always procrastinate
Your Fears: I shall keep that to myself, thanks.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get better marks
Thoughts First Waking Up: What time is it?
Your Most Missed Thing: Random sweet texts in the middle of the day.
How do you want to Die: Wow, what a question.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Still don't really have an idea
What country would you most like to Visit: Anywhere in Europe

FAVOURITES
Pepsi or Coke: Coke.. whatever?!
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: None
Color: red
Number: 4
Soda: Root beet
Book: The Notebook - Nicholas Sparks
Flower: White Orchids

ARE YOU A...
Daydreamer: Yea
Bitch/Asshole: Bitch? I can be I guess. Of course, I wouldn't do it purposely.
Sarcastic: At times.
Angel: Nah
Devil: Nah
Shy: Depends who's around
Talkative: I can be

HAVE YOU
Ever been drunk: Yes
Lied to someone: Yes
Made out with someone who was JUST a friend: Nope
Kicked someone in the nuts: Nope
Been in a fist fight: Nope
Ever been beaten up: Nope
Considered a life of crime: Nope
Considered being a hooker: Wow, what a question. Anyway, Nope.

DO YOU
Smoke: Nope
Swear: When I'm pissed off
Sing: Sometimes
Shower daily: Of course.
Want to go to college: Sure
Want to get married: Sure
Believe in yourself: Sometimes
Get motion sickness: Sometimes
Think you are attractive: Sometimes
Get along with your parents: Sometimes
Like thunderstorms: Nah
Play an instrument: Used to
Color your hair: Used to
Twirl your hair: Uhh, what?
Cheat on tests/homework: Used to. Well I used to copy Marie's. HA HA.
Drink: Not all the time. Very rare actually.
Like roller coasters:Love it.
Wish you could live somewhere else: It's -15C out. I think you know the answer.
Want more piercings: nah
Like cleaning: Uhh, who does?
Write in cursive or print: Print
Own a web cam: Yes
Know how to drive:Yes
Own a cell phone: Yes
Ever get off the damn computer: Yes
Do drugs: Nah
Believe there is life on other planets: Nah
Read the newspaper: Sometimes
Have any gay or lesbian friends: Well she's not really a friend. More like an aquaintance.
Believe in miracles: Sure
Do well in school: I try
Wear hats: Nope
Hate yourself: At times
Have an obsession: Don't think so
Collect anything: Nah
Have a best friend: Yes
Close friends: Sure
Like your handwriting: nah
Care about looks: Sure, everyone does.

RECENTLY.. IN THE PAST MONTH
Have you drank alcohol: Nope
Have you smoked: Smoked what?
Have you been on drugs: Nope
Have you gone on a date: Sure
Have you gone to a mall: Yes
Have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
Have you eaten sushi: Yes
Have you been on stage: No
Have you been dumped: No
Have you gone skinny dipping: No
Have you stolen anything: No

LASTS
Last book you read: True Believer - Nicholas Sparks
Last movie you saw: Fun with Dick and Jane
Last thing you ate: Reese's Bites
Last thing you drank: Water
Last thing you said: Good night
Last song you listened to: Run - Snow Patrol
Last person you talked to on the phone: Geoff

CURRENTS
Current clothing: Sweater + Fleece pants + Socks
Current mood: Pretty shitty. Moody I guess.
Current taste: WTF?
What you currently smell like: Smoke?
Current hair: Uhh, tied up?
Current thing you ought to be doing: I should be sleeping
Current CD in stereo: None
Current song you're listening to: St. Patrick's Day - John Mayer ... Oh memories.
Currently watching: CP24

LOVE
Have you been in love: Yes
Have you been in lust: No
Ever been called a tease: Sure
Do you believe in love at first sight: Not love.
Do you believe in "the one": Sure
Are you too shy to make the first move: I guess

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Doesn't really matter. Blue/Grey is sexy though. Seriously.
Favorite hair color: Doesn't matter.
Short or long hair: Short
Height: Taller than me ofcourse
Weight: Just right?
Clothing style: Doesnt matter. As long as he has good taste and sense of style, good enough.
Personality: Oh where do I begin?

mmm.. chocolate

2006-01-10T03:48:02Z

Awesome two weeks. I really do believe that that was the best thing I've ever done for myself. Things are good right now.. hopefully it'll continue. We'll wait and see what happens. All I know is that 'the ball is in my court' this time around.. things will work out for the best. Feels so weird to be talking about him with my parents, yet its so awesome at the same time.

As much as this is making me happy... I really do hope this is making him happy as well. I mean this is what he's been wanting for almost two years now right? Now the time has come.. it's just gonna take some time for me and him to get used to this.

My brother's back from California. Didn't even get anything! Ha ha. I was actually hoping for those See's Candies he usually gets for me everytime he goes to LA. But I guess not this time. That's what I get for not retuning his calls. Ha ha. Ahhh well.

I love him, and that's that.
Irreplaceable.

finally!

2005-12-23T00:02:57Z

This is probably gonna be the last update for a while.. the two weeks ahead will be very busy and I'm gonna love every minute of it!! Can't wait. Can't wait.

Baby's finally coming home tonight! Actually, in about an hour and a half. WOW! That's actually not too long from now. Ha ha. Been so busy today running errands. Been so busy with work, I haven't been able to do anything else. But I'm glad everything's alright now.. all the presents are wrapped and everything.. cards have been written. I only gotta worry about my parents gifts for Christmas and I honestly dont even know if I'll have the time to get them anything before Christmas.

My head still hurts coz of my stupid braces. BLAH! Everyone told me that it was gonna suck for a week or so.. but no one told me it was gonna hurt this much. GAH! I keep having to put that wax shit so the braces won't scratch the inside of my cheeks but that doesn't really help. I woke up this morning with all my TEETH aching and such a bad headache.. that's the worst. Didn't even get to go to work. But I guess it all worked out since I got to do everything I needed to do. I'm just so tired now.. boo.

Well, nothing else to talk about. Just bored. I keep looking at the time every 10 mins and that's really not helping at all! Just makes the time go slower. Anyway, I hope I don't get lost on the way to the airport. I forgot where I'm supposed to exit. HAHA. But I think I'll remember it when I see it. Eeek.

Ta ta for now ladies. If I don't get to talk to any of you girls before Christmas.. then hope you guys enjoy your Christmas.. don't eat too much! Ha ha.

it's too damn cold again!

2005-12-20T02:04:06Z

CSI!
Haven't watched that show for a while now
Maybe that's coz baby's not here to watch it with me!

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Brace face on Wednesday.
She better not be lying
brace face for ONLY 6 months
OR ELSE!

Can't wait till Thursday! The two weeks went by pretty fast.. lovin' that! I guess it was because I was so damn busy with studying for exams and crap. Got my schedule but Tracy's gonna have to help me fix it (thanks miss!). Class till 6:30? NO THANKS. And I don't know why but they keep giving me this course that I've already taken 2 years ago! Ohhhh Centennial. Anyway, hope this semester will be better. Gonna try to take marketing again since I dropped it coz of the teacher. Just hoping that I won't have the same teacher again.

I update this wayyyy too much. I guess I won't be able to update this for a while for the next two weeks. YAY FUN! Can't wait. Can't wait. I also can't wait to see the look on his face when he opens his present. I really really hope he likes it. If not... then there's always the gift receipt. Ha ha ha. I'm such a dork.

I can't believe I'm saying this but... yay, work tomorrow! Can't wait till I get paid on te 29th... won't be broke anymore.

*sigh*

tired..

2005-12-19T00:42:49Z

Is it just me or it actually just doesn't feel like Christmas?
Maybe it's because hardly anyone have their Christmas lights up?
Or maybe it's because we don't have our Christmas tree up this year?
Or maybe it just seems like there aren't enough Christmas decorations up in the stores?
Or.. it could also be because Geoff isn't here and I'm not in a Christmassy mood yet.
For some ODD reason I kept hesitating to say,"Have a happy holidays" or something like that
to the customers yesterday.. bleh. Oh well. Work was fun yesterday.
Basically coz I worked with Trace and Trina. That's always fun.
But It's been a while since I've worked so my leg was hurting so much this morning from all that standing and walking.
Anyway.
I'm done all my Christmas shopping.. well, two more to go then I'm done.
It's sad coz now I have $13 left. HAHA.
It's okay coz I will be getting a pretty good pay cheque on the 29th
and I will be getting money from my parents for Christmas. YAY.

OOPS. Actually, I forgot I have to get presents for my parents and my bro.
Maybe just for my parents since my brother will not be here for Xmas anyway.

I really want to get tickets for Cirque de Soleil for Geoff.
I guess it would be part of his Christmas gift and along for Valentine's day.
The thing takes place on Feb 20 and/or 21st so it would be a Valentine's day gift too right?
Makes sense?
Problem is that it's SO SO damn expensive.
Bigger problem is that it's probably selling out like crazy..
BLEH.

Maybe next time.
MAAAAYBE next time..
I will have enough money to bring him to Vegas and watch it there..
MWAHAHA
Now wouldn't THAT be awesome.

I'm bored.
Can't you tell?

I MISS HIM!
4 more days
=)

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This girl will be getting braces on Wednesday.
ONLY for 6 months!
BETTER not be any longer than that

bored

2005-12-17T06:59:41Z

Can't sleep.
What a night.
My mom's so...
I don't know.

ANYWAY

Name: Rachelle
Sex: she
Birthday: Feb 4th
Sign: aquarius
Siblings: 1
Shoe size: 6
Height: 5'4
What are you wearing right now?: fleece pants and black sweater
Righty or Lefty: righty
Fingers: wtf?
Breakfast: rarely have breakfast
Have you everbeen hit by a car? yes
Been in the opposite sex's bathroom: yes
Eaten a dog biscuit: eew, no
Got your tongue stuck to a pole: no
Played truth or dare:yes
Been in a hot tub: yes
Swam in the ocean?: yes
Fallen asleep in school: yea i think so
Cried when someone died: yes
Cried in school: yes
Fell off your chair: yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: yes
Saved MSN / YAHOO / AIM conversations: yes
Saved e-mails: yes

First thing that comes to mind...

Red: heart
Blue: sky
Autumn: leaves
Cow: milk
Nickel : coins
Elbow: elbow. ahha

What is...

Your good luck charm: dont have one
Your room: sometimes it can be very messy
Last thing you said: "I've been telling you that since September!"
What is beside you?: my desk
Had Chicken pox: yes
Had a Sore Throat: yes
Like picnics: sure
Like school: no
Favorite school(s): newman

Who was the last person...

You yelled at: my mom
Who told you they loved you: geoff
Who is your loudest friend: jen e

Do you/Are You...

Wear contacts or glasses: both
Believe in yourself: try to
Get along with your family: no
Drink: on special ocassions
Have piercing below the waist?: no
Anorexic?:no
Depressed?: no
Suicidal?: no

Final questions...........

What are you listening to right now: nada
Good Singer: too many
The last movie you saw at the theatres: Rent
Scary or funny movies: both
Root beer or Dr. Pepper?: root beer all the way!
Silver or Gold: silver
Diamond or pearl: Diamond
Sunset or Sunrise: sunset
Phone or in person: in person
Oldest, middle, youngest or only child: oldest

Time now: 2:01 am

finally

2005-12-16T19:41:26Z

So I'm finally done.
FOR NOW.
Stupid school.
Giving me such a headache...
I feel like I pretty much failed my math exam
but I hope that's not the case.
Just gotta keep my fingers crossed.

BTW
THAT was a snow storm??
WEEAAKK!!
I was impressed the roads were alright this morning.

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So happy he called the other day.
It was so nice to hear from him
Just hearing him laugh on the other line
put such a huge smile on my face

6 more days!

awesome!

2005-12-14T19:43:48Z

Well that's just great!
Mother nature decides to dump all the snow tomorrow and Friday.
Just when I have my exams. BOOO.
I hope I'll make it in time for my stupid exams...

Speaking about exams...
I really should be studying.
HA.
Later. Later.

gaaaaah

2005-12-14T04:31:47Z

IM BORED!
IM BORED IM BORED IM BORED.

I really can't seem to concentrate.
I don't know why.
I guess it's because I still have all day of tomorrow
to study study study.

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Baby it's cold outside...
Too damn cold.
I was watching the news and they said that
there'll be another snowfall.
Great. Great.
I absolutely hate driving in the snow.
Not only because you don't even get to step on your gas...
BUT people are somehow even more stupid when they see
snow on the ground.
DAAAAAAAAH well.

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I can't wait till 26th - 28th!
I also can't wait for the whole skiing thing.
Too bad I can't stay there all weekend..
MONEY MONEY MONEY.

NO WORK = NO PAY
=(

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Got an email from him today.
Awesome thing to wake up to...
He and his friends are in Venice right now
then I guess they'll be heading to Florence in a few days.
AHHH
Still very jealous.

Hopefully next year =)
Wouldn't that be the perfect Christmas gift?
Christmas in Italy would be romantic.

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I have everything I want and need this Christmas.
I only wanted/needed one thing...
I have it him.

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OKAY
THIS TIME I'LL TRY TO STUDY
=\

oh man..

2005-12-13T00:07:39Z

Oh man.. what a lazy day. Ha ha. Woke up around 11am.. haven't done that for such a long time! (Sleep in that late) .. made myself lunch.. watched TV, picked up my brother then started writing notes for my exam. But I still haven't been able to do that much coz I keep getting distracted! Not good. It's all good, I still have all day of Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday to study for both my exams. Got my english mark today, did better than I expected. Yay for me. Just actually worried about my two exams coming up coz there's so much crap to know! But yea.. it felt pretty good to basically just bumm around the whole day. Relaxxxxing and stuff.. good thing I didn't have to go out today coz it's SO damn cold! TOO cold!

Currently watching Winnie the Pooh .. some sort of movie about Christmas. Ha ha. Awww, so cute. Anyway, I've been trying to search for Geoff's gift the whole day... pretty frustrating coz I want to be able to give it to him for Christmas. But if not I'm sure he will understand. I hope he'll love it!! (He better! Haha)

gotta concentrate...

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i miss him
=(

b8byl0ve @ 2005-12-06T00:28:00

2005-12-06T05:33:11Z

amazing.

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do

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In a couple of days,
he will be leaving for England + Italy
gonna miss him so much
its all good tho
he really needs to relax and enjoy this trip
afterall, he really does deserve it.
very excited for him

damnit, i really wish i was packing my things right now
...getting ready to go to Italy
oh well
in due time. in due time.
England + Italy + Greece
tour for me and him
ha ha ha

BUT OH GEEZE
Italy??
im one very very jealous girl.
ha ha

BUUUTTT...
i do have the skiing thing to look forward to
YAY!
lets just hope i dont end up breaking any bones...
that wouldnt be good.

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By the by..
I PASSED MY MATH MIDTERM!
yea.. the one i really thought i failed
to tell you guys the truth, i dont know how the hell i passed.
and it was a pretty good mark too!
would have gotten an even better mark if i didnt do such stupid mistakes
oh well
just gotta pass the exam
and sayanora MATH
well.. at least for a year or so.
stupid STATS!

amazed.

2005-12-04T03:20:18Z

Awesome weekend!
Loved it. Loved it. Loved it.

speechless...

oh dear..

2005-11-29T20:37:19Z

So bored.. and sleepy.. oh.. tired as well.
Just in the library waiting for Tracy.
I'd start my math but I think I'm going to take a break from school work for now.
The alarm in the library keeps going off
So much for "Totally Quiet Study Area"
Retards.

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I'm stressed to the max
but my heart's at ease.

I absolutely love seeing him smile
Hearing him laugh

Totally brightens up my day
Even tho when it's gloomy and raining out.
ha ha

THATS IT! No time for this
I dont even know why Im on here.

sigh

2005-11-28T17:27:38Z

sometimes things are better left unsaid..
better left being unseen
does that make sense?

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I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

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Despite all that's happening right now..
I have NO doubt in my mind about how I feel about him..

I'D RATHER HAVE HARD TIMES TOGETHER
THAN TO HAVE IT EASY APART.

well thats fucking great!

2005-11-27T21:48:37Z

just thought when things couldnt get any worse...
it does.

my dad told me this morning that my aunt has a tumour in her brain.
doctors cant operate it or anything because its way too risky
they're just gonna give her steroid to keep her strong.

basically that fucking means we're just gonna wait till she gets weaker and weaker..

i dont know how much more i can take
i feel so weak
so very weak...

b8byl0ve @ 2005-11-27T13:38:00

2005-11-27T19:40:11Z

In reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside

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Oh goodness.
This was one messed up week
and unfortunately, it's not about to change.
I've been putting off school
not taking care of myself..
when I really should be.
So.. midterm on Wednesday
Research essay due on Friday
Presentation on Friday
Have I done anything?
NOPE.

FUCK.
Can things get any worse???

Im so tired.
Currently functioning on 3 hours of sleep every night.

*sigh*

what can I do?
I feel so helpless...

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Hoping for the sun but it looks like rain...

...

2005-11-25T17:10:40Z

hmmm....

OH DEAR.
Here it goes again...

*crossing fingers*

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i absolutely despise winter.
driving is such a bitch during winter time
went through two bottles of windshield washer fluid
in two days! thats insane

GAAAH
no money for gas
broke broke broke

wow

2005-11-23T05:30:08Z

please please please please please please please

i dont ask for many things.